Depressed and lazy
Retired about a month and a half ago after 56 years of working... first thing on agenda was visiting family and friends I haven't seen in way too long.
That caught me off guard as I made aware of several extremely serious situations and predicaments; the worst seeing my brother who is seriously afflicted with PTSD....
I'm a little better now, but think and worry about him every single day. I finally cut it short and returned home after almost 4000 miles. Returning wasn't close to what I expected.
My wife and I had a falling out a week before I left, and she still wouldn't talk to me when I returned, despite me sending her post cards. In this case, time didn't heal anything.
That was 3 weeks ago... we finally started talking a few days ago, but I've been staying in our guest room (empty nesters). I had all kinds of plans for 'honey dos' and home projects, but can't get traction. I have a very hard time sleeping.
I was in a customer service job since 1971 after a 5 year stint in the Navy, and was used to fixing machines and making people happy (and receiving accolades in the process). Now I have nothing....
Sure hope I can turn this around soon or I'll go back to work.
