Retired, depressed as....
by ilona
(Killeen, TX)
I am 59. The last 5 years before retiring were horrible.
Between losing 2 houses (CA and Dallas) and bankruptcy, heart attack, 2 back surgeries and a hip replacement, along with being in federal jobs that were not the right fit as I was told I was too nice to my team and being torn down confidence wise, I gave up and asked for disability retirement. Wrong move.
I now live in Central Texas with my son and his family. I like dogs, gardening and reading. His wife is allergic to dogs and dust (so no books) and hates gardening.
They get upset if I sleep too much and forget I am in pain from arthritis everywhere and spinal stenosis. I am just so depressed and feel trapped and worthless.
I used to make $120k and now... this year I will take home $48k and next year it will be less. Sometimes I just feel like saying ...it.